Raw Nerves

I have a friend who is experiencing what I like to call "raw nerves" right now.  Raw nerves are when you're experiencing a high volume of emotions and you cannot contain it.  Everywhere you go you're splattering your nerves in every direction and for everyone to see, whether you like it or not.  It reminded me that there was an excruciatingly long time when I was experiencing "raw nerves", say all of my life.  Which led to the overwhelmingly positive realization that I'm not any longer!  For so long, I was that overly dramatic person that complained about life and resisted the urge to do something about it, which only made me even more unenjoyable.  My raw nerves were everywhere, I was such a mess! My sisters and Ms. Grace can certainly attest to that.

Now, I'm not saying that I'm not still experiencing my share of setbacks or stress; and a person would not be wrong to point out that this blog is a way for me to complain about life and put my raw nerves out there.  The truth is, however, that I cannot stand the idea of putting my personal feelings out there in a blog for people to read.  The only reason I began it was because Ms. Grace thought it would be a way for people to respond to me and relate.  The whole idea causes an anxiety rush to me.  And that, my friends, is the exact opposite of the Rachael I was known for.  I'm not sure when the metamorphosis occurred, but I am exceptionally grateful for it.  What a blissful realization.

We find out later this morning what the final decision is on The Mr. and his company.  Although, it would just be infinitely easier to stay with a job rather than search for one, we know that end the end we'll be wherever we are supposed to be.

"You are not lost.  You are here."

Oh Stella, How You Move Me

I nearly cried looking at this collection.  I have been waiting for it to open for one month.  Just to look at it! 

I can't wait for the day I can purchase the entire line in one sitting.  That's right, I said "wait" - one day we'll move past this poor phase and be an embarrassment of riches.  Ha!  Seriously though, anyone like my kid enough to peruse this line for me??  Auntie Ashley??  Kidding. 

Truth is, this is exactly why I was so excited for a little girl.  For exactly these clothes...

Moving Along...

Today is a mid-point in our extension so I thought I would check in.  We have two weeks left in our extension and we are still only 65% to our target.  We are exactly in the same place emotionally.  Our chests are tight, our stomachs are hallow, and our minds are racing.  Not a great way to spend an extended period of time, I'd say.

We had a great time Trick or Treating with Rosslyn and friends for Halloween (or really pre-Halloween).  She was a Pig in a Blanket and she was great!  She kept saying "Weeel, I'll puff and puff and bloow house DOWN!"  She was quite confused as to which character she was playing, I think.

We have one week until payday and we're back where we were last month at this time.  On a combined one roll of toilet paper and low on almost everything.  Being strained seems to be less stressful, but is that really good?  Getting used to being so stressed out is not something I believe to be healthy. 

Here's a shot of the happiest part of life right now: