Raw Nerves

I have a friend who is experiencing what I like to call "raw nerves" right now.  Raw nerves are when you're experiencing a high volume of emotions and you cannot contain it.  Everywhere you go you're splattering your nerves in every direction and for everyone to see, whether you like it or not.  It reminded me that there was an excruciatingly long time when I was experiencing "raw nerves", say all of my life.  Which led to the overwhelmingly positive realization that I'm not any longer!  For so long, I was that overly dramatic person that complained about life and resisted the urge to do something about it, which only made me even more unenjoyable.  My raw nerves were everywhere, I was such a mess! My sisters and Ms. Grace can certainly attest to that.

Now, I'm not saying that I'm not still experiencing my share of setbacks or stress; and a person would not be wrong to point out that this blog is a way for me to complain about life and put my raw nerves out there.  The truth is, however, that I cannot stand the idea of putting my personal feelings out there in a blog for people to read.  The only reason I began it was because Ms. Grace thought it would be a way for people to respond to me and relate.  The whole idea causes an anxiety rush to me.  And that, my friends, is the exact opposite of the Rachael I was known for.  I'm not sure when the metamorphosis occurred, but I am exceptionally grateful for it.  What a blissful realization.

We find out later this morning what the final decision is on The Mr. and his company.  Although, it would just be infinitely easier to stay with a job rather than search for one, we know that end the end we'll be wherever we are supposed to be.

"You are not lost.  You are here."